Who do you want to become?

I have noticed that the websites I love are sites I can relate too. Born and raised in St Louis, but as of late I feel as if things are missing. I find myself bored in my hometown because I am slowly outgrowing it. I never thought this would happen. The idea of leaving used to scare me. Now I find myself dreaming of the possibilities because though daunting they seem attainable. I was that kid who changed their mind on who they wanted to become when they "grow up" on a weekly basis. I wanted to be Barbie in the sense that she was every woman of every relatively affluent lifestyle. She was a doctor, lawyer, nanny, scientist, astronaut, mom, horse trainer, fast food worker, athlete and so much more. Yes there are many problems with this, one being that Barbie is not a realistic and necessarily good role model, but the main problem that sticks out is: Who was the real woman behind this doll? I find myself wandering why she was so many things without so much as an education. It sounds weird to spend so much time thinking about this, but most realities start with a dream and a chance. Well what if all we want is to be 'more'? More than the girl who could be anything but settled for a comfortable lifestyle. More than the woman sitting on a stationary bike when all she wants to do is run marathons. More than the doll in the box who changes her profession based on her outfit. Well I want more than my past hardships to define me. I want to expand my horizons because for the first time in a long time I feel like I can and I know if I do not try I will not achieve or succeed in the ways I want to. I look at my older brother who was going to move to New York with a dream, a chance, and no place to stay. A week before he moved he got "the call" and ended up getting a job that most people dream of. I wish I had that innate ability to just know, but right now the unknown is what's constantly pushing me towards wanting more. So I ask you, what are your dreams? Do you believe they can come true?